hello.11.20pm.
hikmah jus ended.
booboo is aslp? i guess so. he's not feeling well.
i hope you'll get better booboo.=)


niwae,
recalling the convo i had with mr mr dude earlier, wad if 'they' found out.

the possibility of a chaos.
outburst of hatred.
betrayal of trust.
ill be doomed.
im talking about my freedom here.


i would unferstand each and every parent would want the best for their child, id do the same if i get to be one.
including controlling their social life, or to narrow it down, choosing an age suitable for a child to have a partner.
perhaps, a daughters' would be higher than that of a son, generally.
the question is, what if she broke the rule?


a daughter,
who could never ask for more freedom,
who could mix with anyone she wanted without much deliberation,[but she chooses wisely, though.hehe]
whose every word is believed by her parents that she feels comfortable lying,[and for every lie, almost, fingers are crossed. God, i rmb u.]
in short,
had her parent's TRUST.


what if just for a split second,
when one may not know what God had planned,
what would happen, that for a moment,
one spilled the beans?


its like her world would turn upside down.
what happens to the trust bestowed upon her.
the effect.
the impact.
and the aftermath.


without a doubt,
first would come in teh cold shoulder.


and could what happens after that,
would be a nightmare.
the words that would be thrown at one's face will be so _____[i dun know how to describe] that one would feel as though she had done something much much more terrible.


i can just imagine.
and i can just foresee what happens when one asks permission to go out.
maybe if one is really telling the truth, one would be accused of lying.
they would feel betrayed by then and you know who to blame.


and for every sentence i type, im really worried.
things can happen, cause we're just His follower and we can do nothing.
but pray.


i hate to say this, but what if we [my partner and i] is forced to do 'something that is the last thing on our list'?
u know dear, the idea of it makes me really sad.
just hope God helps us kay boo.
do pray=)



tata.


rai~