Just for once,
and never again,
nor can i ever explain

Only a moment,
to seep beneath,
perhaps a treasure,a gift

Somewhere not found,
but its there,
and its rare

Too precious,
the only spot and place,
where even time cant erase.


rai~

its 7am in the morning.
i got lots n lots of time to spare.=D
im bored ah.

im bringing colour pencils to school todae.
wee~
=)

hehehe...

im stil so ngantuk cos i came back at 11 last night.
floorball was okae.

ouh yesterday.
me n 3 other girls had to like walk alllll the way to the main gate cos the side gate closed.
they joked that i could go under the gate. cis-_-" haha
so far lah okae.
n it was like wad, malam jumaat.
=S

k soo..
my bag quite heavy todae.

n i dun feel like going to school!
haha
cos i got abit flu ah.
damn.
jangan sunday gua ade flu suda. hehehehe.
=P

yeay POS coming to an end. soon.
does he know how much i miss him?...hehe

k so bubbye.

rai~

my second crappy entry.

i jus got home from sch like 20 mins ago?
i jus stuffed an orange inside my mouth.
ouh ppl, if u wana eat less, eat fruits first, so u will eat lesser rice etc. hehe.
but i still eat alot. wahaha.

i got back 3 papers todae
3 i tell u
3.

maths. biochemistry. Communication skills [for]applied science.
2 were a total washout.
while one was jus still ''not there yet''.

i really want to tell u how i did u know.
its just natural for me to say.
but nah...
im sad ah. my marks are just so predictable that it was really no surprise for me that i flunked big time.big big time.
feel like one totally hopeless gun.
perhaps i should recall how i dealt with lousy marks during my sec sch days. i wasnt so affected then.

k im tired.
tired from school.
tired knowing my marks.
tired knowing i must wake up at 6 tomorrow.

bye

rai~

=)
i feel like bullshitting.
sry for the language.
kk i just wana crap a little.
cos i cant tink of a poem right this moment.

just now.
i tried to multi-task.
eat n read bio notes.
but i got sick in the tummy.
u noe wads in BIO. =S
endocrine glands. exocrine. that chapter.
so i closed that powerpoint slide and ate peacefully=)

coming close to nearly one n a half day of POS.
iim okaY.
try to read other stuff, this and that.
although i know, he's not forgotten.
in fact, he's missed.
am i missed?
hehe.
try not to read that 'red paper' and see 'drawing in the blue box' and the 'small yellow note'

niwae.
i got back Organic Chemistry marks.
felt like shit.
i really want to sms him how i did but i cant. haha.
i passed.
not a good pass.
but tat cher made me feel so nice when she said '' those with no chem background could pass''
well actually only 2 girls, me and donna [who happen to be labpartners. haha its amusing la wen both partners are as blur...]

a few more days to go.
its like..
so MANY hours lah okay.
hehe

c u wen i c u.
in a few days time.
insyaAllah.

=)

rai~

i think i knew it once ago,
but its as normal as it may seem,
but when i met u yesterday,
u blurt out what u think

maybe what u said is true,
u made it sound so clear,
but im the one in this,
how can you be so sure?

u make me think deep n through,
made me feel so not at ease,
u made me feel as though,
im taking all the risk

but u know me, know me too well,
to know what i would do,
but ur face tells me some other things,
i wonder if its true

u frankly told me u were afraid,
for what outcome may be,
u made me think about it all,
now i feel unserene

its been long, u told me its strong,
i really appreciate,
but then u told me the other side,
now they're stuck in my head

if its true its the same cycle,
if its true what we think,
if its true what you thought long ago,
i still cant do anything.

=/

u're someone who inspires me,
and keeps me moving on
u're the person who makes me think,
doubts and worries are all gone

you're someone who supports me,
and tell me what i should do
you told me all the reasons why,
u made me think it through

once again, yesterday u spoke,
i listened but i never replied
but deep inside i thanked you,
cos you're the reason why i tried.

its like all chain's breaking,
must this be it ?,fate cant be wrong,

there wasnt a reason, but now there is,
still, the pretence, played all along,

still, i cant understand, which i wanted more,
but that was then,

now it's all different,
but it this it? will it amend....

=D

to mas:

thankiew for ur precious time tdae
its been fun, all my troubles is like gone away
too bad those hrs fly so fast
its seems so fast that ure ur way back in the bus

n thx cos i manage to cram some stuff inside my head
thanks for testing me cos my memory seems dead
thanks for making me feel happy all the way
till seriously, i felt i didnt have test the next day.

=S
hahaha

a breathtaking moment,
of anticipating,
seems like ages,
outcomes amending

tell me its okay,
this is not happening,
minds would be tortured,
our hearts it's breaking

time leaves our minds,
to think though, pretence
is a play we're acting,
He knows how it's hurting

beginning,
the memories, the hope it brings
lighthing up our hearts,
now it seems,
everything is lying.