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6.57am.
i cant sleep.
that explains why im here...

my rashes are getting better
thanks to calamine lotion!
hehe

okay
i didnt take my med this morning.
it makes me mabok, literally.
it causes insomnia, i think.


=D
so last night..
i thought of my lower sec sch days.
n i suddenly rmb-ed about that _____ relationship i got into.
4 years pass and i realise how much my thinking has changed.
it was such an awful [but amusing?] decision made.
which made me realise i had awesome, helpful friends.
yet,
its an experience i shall never forget, haha.
first love.
riteeeeeeeeee.
more to first relationship disaster.haha....
and its funny i wasnt really heartbroken.
not much pain.
it was just fury, i guess, cos the aftermath realli took me downhill.
but its really funny once u tink back.
n hey,
up till now,
i still dun know what he looks like, perhaps its better this way.
not that im realli bothered.
haha
XD.

now its amusing how blur i was when i was young.
perhaps, 10 years down the road, ill reflect again and laugh at how blur i am when im 16.[then, i would think about relationship with booboo..haha. i wonder how i will look at it]
hey,it happens to everybody.
=)

i hate it when my eyes is blinking2, to try n sleep but my mind wont
.......

ok
booboo dear,
i miss you,
so much,that u dont know,
cos i rarely let it show,
and for all those messages, thank you
it feels nice,to know,
im being missed too.=)

ok tata


rai~

helo.
im alone at home together with syafiqah.
k tats the correct spelling of her name.=D

my parents last minute had to go teh HDB building for house matters.

n syafiqah is asleep, thank God.


rai~

=)
=)
=)

morning.
i jus woke up.11 plus...
n im still sleepy.

i wana go back slp yeah.

n.
calamine lotion smells funny=x

rai~

eloooooooo.
argh,
man!
i got infected by a disease.
dun ask me wad disease.
please.
-_-"

its taking away my sleep lah.
but its ok.

n i read it's information on the net just now.
haha.. take 5-7 days to cure.
den i told my mom.
i said to her ''no nid go doc la''
den she said '' ouh, u wana tahan 5-7 days? ok.''
me"no........=X"
hehe,
man
hu wana tahan this thingy 5-7 days.
*shakes head*
why la must get this
tgh puase pulak tu
cubaan btul.

k
tata


rai~

this song, given by fasha=)

One last cry,
before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie

I guess I'm down... To my last cry...

one last cry, by Brian Mcknight.

nice.
but its not dedicated to booboo.
his song is still the '' u are so beautiful to me''
n boo,
yes, u're so beautiful, not the cantik kind of beautiful,
but beautiful at heart.
thankiew=)
hehe.


good night.


rai~

boo.
eloo
i had roti kirai n curry for break-fast.

waduh.

ngantuk seh.

ok..
jus now i took some photos.
i was bored ok.
dun blame me.

ok.. i was helping my mom pack her stuff.. den...
shafika wants to HELP!














huahua...


























and ever box is labelled.
=)
my bos has 'adik'
n my barbie dolls is in a seperate box=)
haha


saye boring la.
k bye


rai~

elo.
i woke up at 11.40
imagine that!
OMG.
so late.
ISH.
kk tata.


rai~

elooooooooooooooooooooooo.=)
im so bored.
n i cant watch tv. my mom watching some malay drama.
wah boring abis.


niwae,
nothing interesting happen today.
as usual-_-".


i helped my mom clear the store room.
which is only almost cleared.
such small space
with uncountable things,
mostly trash=S

n my mom did the loading of goods out of the store room.
she knows i was afraid there might be cicaks.
n yes there WAS!
lucky i didnt do the loading.
phew.

n again,
today, like yesterday,
i send shafika back home, my dad hantar..
then me n my dad came home jus in time for buka.=)
nothing much ah.

so ok. 3rd day of puasa is better than the second=)


da ok tu je.


to booboo:
awwww thankiew awak dl the song
though i haven get huahua...
n tadi, hai... nvr say boiboi to u. i was busy at tat time, sry.=)
saye rindu awak dear.

chowchinchow!

rai~

5.58am.
duno why oso im here.
hehe...
3rd day of puasa.
n i don tink i drank enough h20.
okla
sleepy
bye
ade org tu skola=P
hehe

rai~

through the fire.. through the lalala..

HADY WON!
as predicted by many.
hehe
no doubt he has good vocals
but i would still tink mathilda has the most powerful voice.=)


so today.
was a really boring day.
second day of puasa.
my family had chappati for break-fast.
together with some other food.


hikmah is 35 minutes away.
b.o.r.i.n.g.
i dun exactly know what to blog about.


but u noe,
when i am busy,
i would think of what to type,
but when it comes to this, i get blank.


so.....
yest, hady sang this song :through the fire.
n im hooked.
quite nice=)
For a chance to be with you, I'd gladly risk it all
sweet kan the song.
*drools*

n now
i checked the 'malay boys' list on my msn..
16 people online man.
kobis no hav *=(*
haha kobis tido... i tink.
ksian kobis. sweet dreams kobis dear=)

oklah.
till here only ill blog.
i miss u booboo.
funny.
i jus met u a few days ago. haha.
=)
tata.


rai~


through the fire
through whatever come what may
for a chance to be with you
i'd take it all the way

SI just ended.
haiya, so obvious hady sings better.
but jon may win? i duno.
c tmr's results aite.
=)


niwae,
today,
first day of puasa went quite well.
plus
im super happy cos we went to see furniture,
and buy some.
WEEEE~


k so we headed to this warehouse
n went looking around.
i went surveying for my wardrobe..
there were nice n nt so nice ones.
so after one round around the warehouse,
i made up my mind
n my family agreed that the one i chose was better cos it had better compartments and also the design nicer than the others.
then also
my mom thought of buying a dressing table for me
u noe, where u put all the make up and big big mirror.
so ok..
i duno if i really needed one.
then we look around..
then we found some exp ones n some cheap ones.
n by human instinct, i liked the nicer one, which was of a little higher price.
then i was reluctant la.
i said nvm ah can go somewhere else and see.
then my mom said we dun have much time.
then my mom pointed to the one i liked and said that the dressing table is better than the others.
so ok, i got that.
=D
cool isnt it.
haha, i cant believe my luck.
alhamdulillah.=)


then my mom was attracted to a shoe rack
its quite nice
with hidden drawers
then she got that one
so ok
end of furniture buying.


then we went cwp.
where both my mom and my sis bought bags.
my mom bought handbag
my sis bought some kind of bag
then my mom wanted to sponsor me this bag i liked
but i checked the bag again.. see te design properly
then i realised there was a slack. the bag had a funny zip on the outside.
so nvmla.
there goes my chance of getting something from my mom.huahua...


then we went to colds storage.
and after much trouble finding my dad's car in the sooo-damn-huge level 5 carpark, we headed home jsut in time for break fast.


so ok.
i chat with boo 15 minutes?
ahaha
pathet.
nvm
boo, happy schooling tmr.
take care okay.
=)

tata


gd night.


rai~

eloooo.
u noe.. actually i went online after i sahur-ed.
hehe
n only one chinese girl, my old campmate was online. so boring.


niwae...
today is the first day of puasa
now is 2 plus
my dad kate lepas zuhur go see furniture.
family, this is wayyyyy past zuhur sayang.
up till now, my family haven siap yet.
urgh.
they LOVE to pracastinate, i guess.
not wad lah.
i just cant wait to buy furniture u know.


ok so..
wonder how my family is gonna cope with the tight schedule
along with the upcoming celebration
we may look calm. but hey, we're worried.
exactly one week from now, my family would techincally own the house.
then it would be renovation time.
and my bro said we might take longer than 2 wks to renovate,
estimated the workload and time needed.
might.
what if its a must?

so dreadful, aint it?


oklah.
tak sabar saye nak tgk furniture.
tata.


ouh
booboo: hello! thx for ur gdnight msg smlm... so nice. i tink i can onli top up next mth, hehe. faham2 lah. niwae boo, slamat berpuase alrite.
endure this holy month with patience=)
happy schooling tmr.
happy wearing ur topman shirt.hehe.
tata.


rai~

wah.
saye penat seh.
more to nantok.


went out to check the new house.
kalau bole, nak renovate everything.. haha
but no, tgh budget.
so ok.
my abg ipar came.
he also see wad needs renovation
niwae..me n my sister really want a wall to be knocked down so that there is more hall space.
the hall would look really spacious mah.
tsk!


n i get to have a second look at my future room.
its undeniably huge.=X
wonder what i wana put inside.
wonder what colour to paint=)
wonder how i wana arrange stuff.
niwae,
talking about stuff
my family were supposed to view furniture toDAY.
then my mom said my dad is sleepy.
so ok..


ouh
we went to makan afta house-viewing
where i didnt finish my meal
but i ate the makcik's french fries hehehe
n got this rojak gt that char kuay.. yum yum
n got this kerang.. ok-ok la.
niwae
'im full
even now.
n im sooo sleepy.
now its jus 8.47 u noe.
my eyes teary liao.


klakla.
i go now.


chowchinchow!


rai~

good morning.=)
now is 11.04am
i woke up 10.30plusplus.


niwae.
i had a great time with booboo yesterday.
cept that the library was closed.tsk.


so then..
we walked all the way to suntec to get my cam batts.
then we bought ice cream
boo,
wadever it is, cornetto is still teh ebst=P
ur snickers, ok-oklah.
boo's eating speed is soo fast.
let me show u.














my ice cream on the left.his, right.-_-"


niwae,the children artworks display at esplanade was quite nice.
p6 students could draw very well.
esp from myanmar n laos.
n boo kept guessing , childish.HEHE kidding.


then we heard the performance by those singers? i duno wad they're called. then those chinese singers sang a malay song and attracted so many audience.


ok so..
after waiting for stars to appear,
but none appeared niwae,
we walked to raffles n went home.


the booboos.=)










n its so nice to tink that he skipped soccer for gng out with me=)
thankiew so much.booboo so sweet.


tata.


rai~

time, please, fly faster.
im ack in singapore, in a jiffy.
yeah
i was home at 2.30
how fast
cos my dad had to work at night
so nvm.
i havent tried on those raya outfits.
i ought to be enthu
many people who tailor their outfits are enthu dont u tink so.


aniwae.
nobody fun is online.
so boring.
klah.da~
booboo, if u online, sms me okay.wee~


rai~

hello. i was up at 7.10
hehe
my mom said we'd be leaving at 8
riteeeeeee
8.20 shes still asking me to iron her bajus.


niwae
yes im gng johore todae
haha
jus to angkat the baju then go home
rather stay at home kan?
but noooo saye boring kat rumah.
duduk dlm krete pun ok jugak ape.
hehe


niwae
boo, wad u tink of my new blogskin?
haha
i wana wait u online to help me choose punyela forever.
niwae
perhaps ure still sick?
but hey
if u sick, how can u stil tink of a poem
hehe
rindu saye eh..
hehe!
niwae boo
take care kay.
booboo sick, then no booboo then no fun.
=(


boiboi. wana siap.
tata


rai~

to booboo:
i jus read ur sms.
sorry i cant reply u still.
aniway,
dear, its such a beutiful poem.
saye soo happy.
i duno wads the event that u made me the poem
i feel so nice
n lucky to hav a bf like u
awwww
saye sayang awak dear
thank you sooo much
u don't know how long i smile after i read it
its so the awwwww
even now im smiling
hehe
man
ure so sweet boo.
love you to bits and pieces sayang.
=)


goodnight.
*muah*


rai~

k so todae
the time didnt fly.
but its ok.


know wat
i took less than half hour to kemas the hall
hehe
i mean i jus use this something to kind of sweep the floor of the hall
since y'day mop oredi mah
so ok
i did my room
n my sis room
n keep complaining to my mom about something
huahua...

eh
i hear the 'ten ten teden..' the marriage song
hahaha i mean on tv
my mom ah tgk tv
the mexico drama series
ala
i love that episode la
at the lake...
they relax on the thingy while the thing float on the lake.
it looks so heavenly.
that thingy is like haven.
*dreamy face*
haha....
took so long for me to explain to boo wad the thingy is, hehe


ouh btw
boo sick again=(
dun go training la boo, go out with me instead
HAHAHA
kidding.


okla
actually nth to update

tata.


rai~

today is going to be another boring day at home.
i jus hope the day end fast.
super fast.
=)

If you leave me now,
you´ll take away the biggest part of me
you´ll take away the very heart of me
A love like ours is love that´s hard to find
How could we let it slip away?
We´ve come too far to leave it all behind,
how could we end it all this way?
When tomorrow comes
and we´ll both regret things we said today


what if its not now, its 5 minutes lateR?
nyahahaha.
LAME.
nvm.
aniwae
its a song by peter cetera
a song
so old yet so nice
with lyrics so short
yet leaving a deep imapact on the listener
hehe.
klah.bye.goodnight.sweetdreamskay.
dreamalildreamofme.

hi.
my sis pham jus came my house
da balik pun
i gave shairah her belt
and she liked it=D
ok yeay.
but it was a little to long for her waist.nvm.


so today
my mom was mad at me
ouh well, nothin new.
n khadijah wants to borrow cam from me tmr
like meet her la
i have no problem with that
my mom does-_-"
she said im forever going out.
riteeeeeeeeeee.
n i even told her its khadijah who wanted to borrow the camera okay.
im soo pissed.


tata.


rai~

chak!
hehe...
hello.


saye klua wit booboo tdae.
duno why outing not nice.
like serious.
meeting boo is nice,
but the outing no nice.
went to bugis..
bought shairah's barbie doll belt
then marina square to get boo's tshirt size S hehe
then bought famous amos.
lotsa policeman..
*grins*
hahaha
but nola, its very uncomfortable to walk pass them, among them,or to even see them from afar.
i think the policemen partly made the day no nice
forever u noe
-_-"


aniwae
raffles, where we duduk,
n where booboo terjumpe his tall tall friend,
pun got policemen lalu
n got lotsa formal people hanging around
n got this hujan tree there.
ahaha


niwae
ok dah tu
kite check sumting hehehe
then went home=)


then i watch HIKMAH
then i online to see boo online
haha



boo, next time dun go out on monday
any other day
not monday
cos i shall nvr understand ur blues. haha, seriously.


tata


rai~

hello
actualy i sign in msn
but i appear offline
n i saw BOO.
hehe
but i cant tok to boo
i got work to do..
=kene scotchtape boxes la
nak pindah katekan..
hehe!
tata


gd nite!
adios amigos beram.. nvm.
=)


rai~

boo!
hehe

elo....


know what.
actually my mom n my sis wanted to see furniture today.
so i was happy.
then cukup mase,
my dad came home,
he said he's tired.
lerh.. k nvm.


then they said maybe go tomorrow, monday.
then i had this convo with my mother..


me: nak klua la bsok...
mother:kul brape
me: tak tau..
mother:tak tau cancel suda=D
me: ala.. da lame tak jumpe kawan orang


hehe
bykla my kawan.
till when i need to hide eh.
but its better to hide it i think, knowing them.


niwae,
they cancelled the outing tomoro
we'll go see furniture on another day.


then my dad could still say '' asik nak klua aje!-_-" ''
man?=O
ive been sitting at home for GOD knows how long okae.=X
baru nak klua da kene sound. then lpas tu he sat 'jalan baik2'
erm.
kay.


niwae, yeay.
=)


tata


rai~

RICHARD MARX
NOW & FOREVER

Whenever I'm weary
From the battles that raged in my head
You made sense of madness
When my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way, but still you
Seem to understand
Now & Forever,
I will be your man
Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I'm holding a fortune
That Heaven has given to me
I'll try to show you
Each and every way I can
Now & Forever,
I will be your man
Now I can rest my worries
And always be sure
That I won't be alone, anymore
If I'd only known you were there
All the time,All this time¡.

Until the day the ocean
Doesn't touch the sand
Now & Forever
I will be your man


hehe
im caught up in this song la.
so nice.
hai..*drools*
luckily the singer not jesse mccartney eh boo. HEHE.
but nice right this song
even those its slow
n quite plain
actually i duno why i like this song the FIRST time i hear it on fiq's mp3.
bt theres just something
=)
awww
so nice this song.


rai~

hello.
=)
i changed the skin of this blog.
D-uh.
niwae
im tired of that skin, that porcupine tree skin, dont know why i choose it oso.


aniway,
i didnt choose this skin because it is SPONGE BOB.
but its cute aniway.
theres another reason why i chose it.
;)
its sumting got to do with jeng3.
hehe.


niwae
todae is another boring day at home
break record sia
nvr go out for more than _ days. hehehe!
but nah, smlm i go my sis house.
boring...
i havent even drink milo todae
i forgot
=/
niwae
apela tailor tu
tak siap. tsk.


kla boiboi


rai~

OMG.
ive finally found the song i wanted from affiq's ipod shuffle.
from sec 4 okay!
then i ask affiq ah the lyrics got ''i will be your man or something'' then he cant recall. too many songs haha


then fir gav me this url of this song
yesss arh!
k actually he giv me this song cos he told me the memory behind the song..
awww so sweet lah.
but nevermind, let bygones be bygones la okae=)


enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_-PSwWJFxZg

morning.
the weather is so nice to sleep in.


but i cant sleep back


aniway,
last night
i woke up in the middle of the night
i dont know what time even
and i got a headache then a tummy ache
then i felt funny
then i felt hungry
n my tummy lurched
-_-"
WEIRD kan.
but i selimut myself to sleep. hehe


ouh i had a funny dream
i dreamt that my sis n bro in law has a very huge house, a jumbo apartment
its soo big with so many corners
its amazing i didnt get lost
then i dreamt of my grandparents and aunt coming into that house
then i saw my grandpa styling his hair n looking good then he smiled at me
then my aunts settled down in a room which was quite nice
then i went to siap for an outing
then we went into my dad's car,
but this car seemed larger, with almost all people coming in
it became more than a 7 seater
funny
silly dream.


man
so sleepy
maybe later ill sleep in the car
tata


and boobo,
i hope u're alright already yeah.=)
i know it sucks to have long dreading fevers.
so, take care kay boo.


rai~

ala
i sedih
sedih for 2 reasons.

k
first reason,
jus now i went to my sis house
then after that go kdai with my mom n sis
n guess wad
no marshmellows.
cam nak rak saye carik
takde seh
at last i jus ketuk a bueno n ice cream from my mom.
hai..
marshmellows=(
di mana kamu dong. kok susah bangat.


ouh niwae
booboo la make me sad
why la must u sms me bout the game the other couple play
haha
but nvm at least u sms
but u noe la, i cant reply.
i miss u boo...
i miss that game
i miss tin tin [hehe]
i miss u laffing after i say sumting funny /stupid. haha
saye miss awak la boo.


if oni u can msn. hehe.
tata


rai~

omg.
stupid marshmellows.make me daydream.


niwae.
tdae
i was so lazy.
k i am still actually.
all i did was hang the laundry.
my mom dint cook so i cudnt help with cooking.


then i so lazy wana sweep.
maybe cos of the weather la.. so nice to sleep u know.
some more my house in a mess. box here box there how to sweep.
then i keep watching tv.watch cartoon.
then i had to keep my raya clothes inside a box.
sorting my tshirts by colours. hehe



kla kla crap la.
i did nothing useful today
the end.


niwae
later my ikot my mom go my sis house must halp carry baby-belling.
then..
can buy mashymellow!!!! YES!

da~


rai~

bloggy!
know wad
im having a craving..
argh.
jus now i open the fridge n found marshmellow
one oni.
then i eat
then finish liao.
i want more n more
packets n packets.
muahahahahah!


booboo...
mane mamat ni agaknye eh
hehe
dmam dmam pun bole klua beli barang
*shake head*
niwae
get well soon la boo
but ala u sick or not i still kacau u!
hehe
but if i sick, not fun kan boo kan
u told me so
huahua!
hehe


tata


gd nite.

rai~

boo!
hehe.
k now i know some of my friend's results. a few oni.
k perhaps i shud feel abit happy cos i dun fail anything.
but im not sure la.
some of those genius are really good sia.
i feel so sian.
-_-"


niwae
today i helped in the kitchen again!
guess wad i cook!
ok i HELP to cook hehe
i think its nice
i haven tasted.
it looks nice though.


kla tata


booboo mish her booboo.
=)



rai~

hello.
ive been thinking of my results lately.
its not good but if only theres a way to know how i did for my exams.
as in just exams not plus plus all the other &*^&( pop quiz or tests which i flunked.


n hey,
i PASSED pipc!
considering the fact that i ever got 3/20 for one test.
i wonder who my another fren who got 3/20 did too.
im so curious.
now i feel lucky.
i dun hav to take supp paper!
ok now im cocky.
hehe
nola
i just feel plain lucky cos God helped me.
thank you thank you.


i wonder if anybody has to take supp ppr.
i noe of a fren who has to.
bt shes from an engine course.
kay, good luck to her, may she not hav to repeat the module.

hmmm
i duno what to write.
i just checked my result slip.
i dont know what to comment.


the highest score was a b+ from CSAS, a CME-like subject, but just mmuch harder
the lowest was a D for pipc.
yes, how expected.


perhaps my optimism is all crushed.
down the drain.


good night.

its so awful.

hello.
11.30 pm.
13th sep.


its confirmed.
i asked eric oredi, my clasmate.
even his msn name states it.
TOMORROW IS THE MOMENT OF TRUTH.


damn.
biochemistry....
pipc.......i flunk this i know
MATHS! OMG!
HAP...
oc! hmm maybe OC i gt chance?
ehehehe.


niwae
its tomorow
i cant wait though
just that if i dun get good grades,
its would be more or less disappointing
but it won be surprising?
ouh yes
the ultimate question
PST or BMT.
man.
man.
man!


fajie sure go PST cos her chem is good.
elyn sure go BMT. cos her HAP good.

me?
me... i guess i dun noe. i tink my art is good hehehe!
k seriously,
i think i dun a a flare for any of these subjects,
i dun hate them though
i jus know that i can score if i work hard enough


so i guess it doesnt matter where i go BMT or PST.


k actually yes, i must admit, i dun tink this is my dream aniway.
dun tell me u all got into courses of ur dreams okae.
u all also got into ur course to be so called 'safe' right.


but i have to think correctly. where to go.
please help me kay.
thanks.


tata~


rai.

hello.11.20pm.
hikmah jus ended.
booboo is aslp? i guess so. he's not feeling well.
i hope you'll get better booboo.=)


niwae,
recalling the convo i had with mr mr dude earlier, wad if 'they' found out.

the possibility of a chaos.
outburst of hatred.
betrayal of trust.
ill be doomed.
im talking about my freedom here.


i would unferstand each and every parent would want the best for their child, id do the same if i get to be one.
including controlling their social life, or to narrow it down, choosing an age suitable for a child to have a partner.
perhaps, a daughters' would be higher than that of a son, generally.
the question is, what if she broke the rule?


a daughter,
who could never ask for more freedom,
who could mix with anyone she wanted without much deliberation,[but she chooses wisely, though.hehe]
whose every word is believed by her parents that she feels comfortable lying,[and for every lie, almost, fingers are crossed. God, i rmb u.]
in short,
had her parent's TRUST.


what if just for a split second,
when one may not know what God had planned,
what would happen, that for a moment,
one spilled the beans?


its like her world would turn upside down.
what happens to the trust bestowed upon her.
the effect.
the impact.
and the aftermath.


without a doubt,
first would come in teh cold shoulder.


and could what happens after that,
would be a nightmare.
the words that would be thrown at one's face will be so _____[i dun know how to describe] that one would feel as though she had done something much much more terrible.


i can just imagine.
and i can just foresee what happens when one asks permission to go out.
maybe if one is really telling the truth, one would be accused of lying.
they would feel betrayed by then and you know who to blame.


and for every sentence i type, im really worried.
things can happen, cause we're just His follower and we can do nothing.
but pray.


i hate to say this, but what if we [my partner and i] is forced to do 'something that is the last thing on our list'?
u know dear, the idea of it makes me really sad.
just hope God helps us kay boo.
do pray=)



tata.


rai~

hey bloggy.


todae is 11th september.. exactly a few yrs after the 911 wtc incident.
ok so im not political, i dont really remember.


i heard my friends said our exam results is 3 days away.
on the 14th.
i feel like i cant wait.
sort of.apart from the exam results,
i want to know something that has been bugging me for so long.


tata


rai~

when i first went out of the house, it was raining cats and dogs.
sheltered by an umbrella made little sense as i got wet still.


part of my jeans were soaking wet and my shoes felt like sponge, just a little.
but all that trouble seems too little to overcome compared to how much fun i had with my bestfriend, nasiyah. its so worthwhile.


i met her at Bugis, swaying an umbrella past her face as she still didnt seem to acknowledge the figure standing right in front of her.
she was startled but we gave each other a quick friendly hug.
awww.=D


as we walk through that underground lane, i began to explain to the little little detail of how sorry i am, at the same time seeking any sign of forgiveness in her eyes. she is forgiving.=)


we headed to OG where she had in the first place, initiated we'd go.
we headed straight to the shoe department where she had a hard time choosing between purple white and blue. also, doing something before that, making sure its durable. haha.
the blue and white shoes had funny imprints on the side while the purple one, i totally had a crush on from the start. =D even so, she felt it was unstable, thought so too, so we went up.


second level.where its clothing paradise.
and there was this certain brand which had designs so exquisite.
we could only drool because the cost was just as beautiful. haha
dont that happen all the time anyway.


also on that level, we eyed on flip flops, but we find that its too beach-y. and the one i liked wasnt on sale, so forget it.=)
then just bside those flip flop section, hung 4 cute looking white pouches which cost one dollar! hahahaha.
we took two clean ones and paid.
it was the deal of the day. hehe.
even though we don't really have any idea at all what to use it for or what to be placed inside, it just seem cute.
then, we went down.


after much consideration, nasiyah bought teh plain white top from gio since she cant find any better deal.


bugis street was as pack as usual.
we walked two lanes and i wanted food.
so we went for lunch. at BK.
where i order that hershey sundae pie and sing two lines of the bdae song for her haha.
she said ''candles?''. i apologized i forgot. nyahaha.
aniwae BK meal got me full.
barley got my tummy bloated.
ouh we talked.
girl talk.
after what she said tome, its ironic what i say to her last time.
i guess its just a phase we'd go through.


niwae,
we went back bugis,
and we bought a skirt together=)
mine is beigey tone while hers is some kind of red. but the design is superb.
okae. tat was her birthday present. =D
then then..
we walk up to find nothing and went down again..
walk back to the very first lane
where nasiyah asked again teh price of this black n white top
its undeniably lovely
the price is not.
its not really worth it
so forget it.
we walk some more


and nasiyah end up falling in love with this green flowery top.
but she bought a brown one instead because i said brown is nice. haha
sometimes i wonder if she is the one wearing or me?


=) there, i bought this lacey thingy which i can use as a belt.
its 5 buckos. huahua. i wonder if its cheap or exp since its just a piece of long cloth. ive never bought this kind of stuff.but i love it=)


then we went watsons to buy some stuff.
yada yada
we went seiyu
and nasiyah and me were surprised that U2 had tops too
which costs the same as gio.
of course u2 is better.
but nvm.


taking pics of our reflections on teh mrt galsspanel nvr felt so stupid.
haha
every pic we took was ugly. haha
and we kept laughing.
then my train came and i hugged her n rushed to the door.
i got home.


i guess today is a VERY nice day with my bestfriend.
=)
n im glad she enjoyed the poem i gave her.


tata.


rai~

random.=)

when the load feels heavy on your shoulder and the tunnel never seems to have an end, one could only wish there would be a beam of light. but one never believed or thought there would be one. they would forget though once they see it, some remembers, maybe one or two, its rare.

might be the same old pattern, but en entirely larger, different, serious scale. not that it wasnt so serious before. just that thoughts come in deep. and to view it from a different perspective, to have to act a role you're not used to altogether, it never seems easy, and no one said it would be either. it isnt really something u had in mind, or perhaps, it was the last thing on your list.
but to tell yourself its all in the mind, so be calm, so time pass and nothing.
those three needles moving from one digit to another, passing all twelve, as if poking at u, and you feel the sneering.
you wonder where it would be or what, or is tehre none? but you know, patience is virtue.


hehe.


tata


rai~

my dream.

bad bad dream.
k i dreamt that..
i was with a group of people on this day.
i duno where the place was but something tells me its school.


so ok.
i knew it was exam week and i was skipping school for i duno wad reason.
den steph came up to me to tell me i had to get MC if i didnt want to come for exam cos if i had no valid reason, id be dead, as in, get some heavy punishment, or debarrment, i cant really remember.

so ok i got that in mind..
i didnt know how the time flew so fast but the day came to an end.
so it was already night time.
then it struck me that i havent gone to the doctor to get MC.
i was panicky.
i had no choice but to sit for exam the next day.
and the worst news is, i havent started studying!


then i woke up-_-"
=)


hehe
perhaps people get that sort of panicky dreams cos they are stressed up, it happens, ive seen it on tv, ur mind influences your sleep.
but hey, i tink of booboo tau, why i get these sort of dreams. tsk=

i still havent decided waht to wear to meet nasiyah.
haha
i miss her la
i cant help but think bout the time we were so scared at the apartment at Melaka,Afamosa. we were so weird. we did stupid things, and those stupid things, we shall only keep it to ourselves.
but i wont forget how lucky we are
our apartment was on the 14th floor, perhaps,
and on night, they had fireworks display for i duno wad reason.
perhaps they know i was coming. HAHA. riteeeeeee.
man, i love nasiyah. hehe! *muah*


kla kla i shall do someting i should do from yesterday, now.


tata.


rai~

i feel like eating now.=(
but nah..
i must wait until 8 plus hor.


about 17 mins to go.
now is 7.59.


k lets talk crap.
todae....
saye,
eat lunch, tgk hindustan
so boring gua bilang lu.
n i use comp alot alot
but my mom cant say anything
ive kemas ruma for her=)
n even her dapo
usualy i tend to skip the kitchen hehehe *grins*


and yeay
abg arsyad gimme this glenn fredly song
=D
nice nice=)
from last time i only hear on tv shows.
huahua.. pathet eh. hehe.


ouh
tmr
im meeting nasiyah
i feel very bad u noe
i actually made a mistake
i hope she forgives me
its very very stupid of me
im so blessed to have a friend like her, yet im so blur
yeay
bsok saye klua
tapi tak tahu nak pakai ape eh...
hmmm
=/


k GOOD NIGHT.

TATA.

hav a good night sleep.
doa before u sleep=)
then u wont hav nightmares=)
hopefully.
k sweet dreams.


rai~

awww.
so nice to hear booboo's voice just now
even if for one minute only.hehe


saye rindu awak jugak booboo=(


rai~

=D

GOOD MORNING.=)
hehe.


i haven breakfast, haven kemas katil.
hehe...


actually i got nothing to write ah.
im just excited that my fren is writing write-ups
n i can read them
the languange is nice so i loike.=)


actually yesterday i went sentosa
with khadijah and her friend.
quite ok la
including the fact that i was meeting her fren for the first time,
it went quite well.
but i didnt get tann
cos we swim like not so long
cos her friend has some kind of curfew
so ok
i went home to watch SUTUN.
hehe
such a lembut guy=)


den i went online after that
guess who was online..
BOO!
hehe... so nice talk to boo even for awhile.=)


man,
my bestfren's birthday and itik's bdae coming.
save ur money rai
dun spend rai.

tata


rai~

haiya.
i wish i understood tamil.
in the mrt eh..
kau...
*shakes head*'
so obvious sia.
-_-"


todae was quite nice=)

hey hey
wani gave me this beautiful song.
beautiful disaster.
haha


Oh cuz I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long



this is jus 1/5 of the song. haha
its by kelly clarkson btw, da lame da, but i didnt know the lyrics nice.
its kinda sad song.


booboo, dun be my beautiful disaster okae.hehe
booboo says "insyaAllah=)"
hahaha.
rai siow la.


tata


rai~

hello.
today,
all i did was,
use comp,
kemas ruma,
eat,
go kedai,
talk to khadijah on phone.
haha
stupid conversation.
not stupid la
funny.
niwae,
tomorrow im gng out
with scandals
weeeeeeeeeee.
i saw boo's myspace
but duh, i cant view photos
no big deal
his photos come from..
my camera -_-"
i stil dun geddit
why sign up for a second friendster?
i jus find it weird
klah bye.
tata
rai~

hello=)


its now thursday, 9.07 am.


saye baru je bangun, n got sms from ms pushpa..haha.


niwae,
i love yesterday's outing so much.
but i love booboo more. hehe=)


kay.
first stop.
wdlds ctrl sttn!
haha
met maslina
went to colds storage to buy chocs for pushpa.
buy sundae pie at BK n then candles.
then went pasa malam where we bought ramly burger
haha
then we ate while walking to sch
its either we were sooo hungry or the burger was veyr nice.


niwae,
at evg
met pushpa for awhile,
gave her the stuff, joked etc...
so nice meet her.
then it was time to blah.


so ok.
say boiboi to mas.
then met booboo.



then
i accompanied booboo to yishun.
where he played drums.
haha.
i jakun sia.
first time step inside a jamming studio.
k aniwae
it was an hour.
so ok, when booboo was done with the practice, we blah, took 858 n alighted near booboo blk.


so i waited under the blk for awhile.
booboo had to do sometthing at home.
i asked him to
hahaha!
sorry ah booboo..hehe=)


k so take bus then mrt.
actualy want to go Esp.
then ..

boo: macam nak makan kat far east la
me: ok. nak makan first or esp first?
boo: =me: ala.. muke u, mesti nak makan dulu punye.
boo: ya. orchard dulu =D
me: haha.. da agak-_-" hehe!


so ok we go far east.
where booboo eat some fried hor fun? i duno
i eat wantan mee.
n we got full.
so booboo had a boncit tummy=)


then we go esplanade.
=)
yeay
hehe
da lame tak gi.
so yeah
we jus sit by the waterfront.
viewing colourful singapore. hehe
n
talk
n
crap
haha
n
tin tin!
hahaha
oni me n booboo noe wad it is la
its a very funny action, just very cute=)



haha
n man,
those mamats,
*shake heads*
isnt it obvious booboo is my boyfriend. hai...


k so we walked to raffles,
[wad a nice walk=)]
then its so funny sia when we talk bout the my birthday,
hahaha i canot angkat sia.
k we walk together gether,
while booboo dance, blocking some apek trishaw. haha
n also
while taking some stupid photo.
where booboo had the chance to be taller haha
i show here.















cam btul je booboo!
hehe.
niwae, the picture taking was fun n nice. haha.


then we walked to raffles mrt sttn n bounced to marina n went home.


niwae, it was a very ncie outing lah, that i prayed so hard nothingbad would happen.
n He answered my prayers. Thank You.


hai...
i duno why i like yesterday so much.
it was a very nice, complete day.
i get to meet mas, pushpa, booboo. awwww...=)


i feel so happy. even now=)


sayang booboo=)


tata


rai~

wednesday,
9.10am.


aiyoh
blk sebelah bising seh ade renovation
-_-"

nak tido pun tak bole.

haha
later my new house oso renovate other ppl complain=D

i duno wad to wear for todae la.
=

kla

tata.


rai~

shalalala.


saye happy todae.



i made someone feel good.
i made my friend feel good lah actually.


niwae, apart from gng to kedai for my mother,
who in the end stil scold me cos i bought the wrong thing hahahaa,
n meeting booboo to giv his mnms n mp3,
i stay at home sia.
so boring.


kk
my friend jus laughed at me for an episode i shared with him.
ape je
ape yg klaka nah?
kk i tell booboo tomoro, c if he laff.
my fren sampai save the convo sia. wth?
tsk.
ketawekan org, number one haha


oklah
gd nite.
tata


rai~

tuesday.
10.55am.=)


booboo online.. hehe


niwae,
saye meet boo smlm.
awww
so nice.
i mean, after 22 days.
woah.
very long u noe.
n meeting him for hmm 7 hrs is surely so short.
i felt that da day ended so fast
i wanted it to be longer.. haha
n
booboo, he forgot to take his mnm's n hi mp3.
haha
niwae,
i won forget yesterday.
one of most memorable.
haha
cos so many things happen.
this n that.
ouh so nice.
hehe=D
wad a nice day with booboo.
thank you so much boo.
i love you boo.=)


rai~

boo!


its 10.04 am MONDAE.
HEHE


but i feel feverish sia.
pls go away.
pls go away.
pls pls pls.


isit bcus too aircon too cold or sleep bside my sister or i tendang the blanket?
i Dono.


kla i wana breakfast.


tata.


rai~

hie.
its 9.07pm.
sundae.
tomoro is,
MONDAY.
hehehe!


im done with my room.
no longer pigsty.
i had to crack my brain to get idea where to hide boo's stuff.
=S


niwae..
holidaes is so long.
i wish i had sumting to do.
or holidae trip ke.. wah best.=D


i'm wondering how im gona do for my exams.
i hope i do o-k.
its either top12 or bottom 12.
so risky.
n worst,
pharmaceutical science or biomedical technology?
=
id rather not dread myseelf with these qns now.



dun worry,
be happy k rai.=)



tata


gd nite.=)


*muah*

hey. its 9.55pm
sundae.
3rd september..



k niwae
i realli wish i didnt go to fiq's blog just now.
i went to itik's blog. hers was okae. jus a little sweet paragraph talking about the frenship bond was alright.


but fiq's blog,
man, it made me so damn terkilan.
he put the teacher photos all...
omg lah....
n he put the class photo.
=(
saye so sedih.
why must tp have exams on that day.


but niwae, i tink im gng to sch to meet pushpa on _______.
hehe. i soo cant wait.
i realli cant.
i cant even wait for tomoro.hehe!


saye rindu sangat dengan booboo.
i dreamt of boo smlm but i forgot wad was it about.
but i remembered i was half-awake since i was concious i was in dreamland.



its still long before i shift,
but half my stuff in my cupboard are in boxes already.
hai...



k.happy sundae morning.=)


rai~

elo.........
its 11.14pm.

booboo tak online, so boring.


nvm.


my pile of stuff is halfway done.


n my mom asked me the 'cepumas question' jus 15 minutes ago.-_-"


n im sleepy now.
but im bored.
my mom probably thinks im chatting.
but no im not.
m jus plain bored.


ouh. i saw my kingdergarten photo. i was fat.=)
n i was so fair.
n fat.
n my dimples seem quite deep due to the chuby cheeks.
cos i was fat.
then i asked my mom if during those days, i ate 2 plates of rice each time.. haha


i came across lots of photos.


man. im bored. kla kla bye. nite nite everybody.=)



rai~

man.
i am sooo bored.
i haven dinner.
hehe...



hmmm.....
ouh, while packing my things, i happen to find my journals.
u noe, those sort of diaries u write to tchers.
haha


it was a sec 3 journal.
i wrote about how i fret getting to come into 3e1.
and then i appealed to 3e2.
tHOSE WERE THE DAES.
n teh language, man i sound so kiddish la.


haha



kla kla.
my mohter sound sia.
i bored tau.
kla kla bye.


tai~

BOO!

hey bloggy.
noe wad.
my room is like a tsunami donation drive.


hehehe
so messsssssy!
i didnt know i kept so much rubbish in my wardrobe or almari or cupboard. wadever u call it.


i stil hav sec sch bks to clear..
omG, why didnt i clear them earlier as in last yr..



from petang till now haven finish yet..hehe.
kla i ought to continue before my mom sound me.


tata...


mondae mondae mondae.. hehe!


rai~

hey hey.
its 10.28 am.


my mom is stil on my bed..
n im sure she gona 'sound' me within this half hour..
hehe..


cos later i kena pack her dishes.
fun u noe=)
like wrapping present..hehe kk lame.


had my breakfast.. etc etc..


n im browsing thru my tchers day pics...
haha
i didnt know that me mas n fiq takes sooo many pics sia.
photogenic la katekan... NYAHAHAHA.


k niwae.. i cant wait ah mondae. yeay.
on eh? on eh?

hehe..

lets tink of what to wear...
brown...beige... white....
=D


kla tata.

eloooooo.
its 3.30 in the afternoon and i havent had lunch yet.


im waiting for my sis to klua.=)

niwae im waiting for my fren's sms too.

im going out tdae hehe.
meet my friend.


k soo...
i slpt in teh aft sia.
from around 1 till 3.30 plus..


see lah. my sleeping pattern rabak kan.


niwae, i weighed myself again todae.
im soo happy im not becoming heavier.
=D
such great news.


ok. sry for the interruption.
my sis dah nak klua pintu.
then she asked me to klua out of my room.
she asked me ''adik... kasut ke sliper?''
me''kasut tinggi ah'' then she objected,kaki sakit.
me" ouh sliper ah'' since match with the baju.


then she blah.
hai... am i her fashion advisor?
or am i her fashion advisor?
NYAHAHAHA.


im so bored siaaaaaaaaa.
msn with people oso like nth.
the person i talking with oso gng off soon.
cis.


i tink rite,
this shift,
this house shift,
is gona be sooooooo fun.

can get to choose paint.
deco room.
etC etC..
ala i cant wait.

but sumtimes wen i tink bout it, i can wait.=)
hehe...


kla tata.

i open the fridge...
n saw SNICKERS.

hehee


thankiew abah


next time buy crunchie eh. igt tau, its 'crunchie'..hehe
ya man... each time i tell him 'crunchie', he buys sumting else.
that time he phoned me while at the kedai and said theres no crunchie..
then he said he'd buy some fruit n nut..


then another time oso i said i wan crunchie.
he bought CRUNCH.
ah yela.
igt kelaka ah tu.
EHEHEHEH!


k niwae.
yesterday, i had the time of my life.
hahaha.
nolah, not time of my life.
but it was fun being with my old classmates.
sarah n wani went of..
so left me steph mas fiq..


i miss those craps.=

niwae, my room is like a pigsty.
my mom sweared she is gona bantai me if i dun kemas by todae.
mak, chill lah mak.hehe


niwae..
my mom n sister went to some warehouse n bought furniture.
yes, without my opinion.
HUH.
hehehe. usualy they ask my opinion but nvm i wasnt there niwae.


n yes, my mom said i could choose my own too. awww.. so nice.=) i cant wait.


tata.